[OPEN] where would we be today?

[Sebastian James Miller]

but don't think i don't think about it
don't think i don't have regrets
don't think it don't get to me
between the work and the hurt and the whiskey
don't think i don't wonder 'bout
could've been should've been all worked out
i know what i felt and i know what i said
but don't think i don't think about it

"Emily, love," Sebastian called to his three year-old daughter. "We've got to go. We're going to be late," he said, and opened up her bedroom door. The brunette sat at the edge of her bed with her arms folded across her chest. "I don't wanna go. I wanna stay," Emily whined. The husky laying on her bed picked up her head and laid it in Emily's lap. "S-see? Maya wants me to stay," the little girl stuttered, and wrapped her arms around the dog's red and white neck. Sebastian walked over to his daughter and sat down on the bed next to her. "Darling, it's okay. There will be lots of food and candy and music at the party. And we can stop and see Moon before we go to the party," Sebastian negotiated and took his daughter's arms from the dog. She nodded and wrapped her arms around his neck instead. Sebastian lifted her up and carried her to the truck waiting outside.

After putting Emily in her car seat, Sebastian headed over to the barn. He wasn't going to let his daughter down. She was spoiled, even though he was a single father. He hadn't met too many people since they had moved, and the few that he had met he hadn't ran into since. It was actually quite sad. Emily's mother had only tried to call a few times, but it was all when Sebastian had to be at the tack and feed shop he owned. And it was hard as hell to explain to a three year-old why Mommy doesn't want to talk to her. It was one reason they moved away from their hometown. It was much simpler telling her that she was asleep because of the time zones or something. He pulled the truck into the driveway of CrossFire and parked it outside the barn. "Moon?" Emily asked from the backseat. Sebastian nodded at her. "Yes, Moon. We're going to visit her and then go to the party, okay? he asked, and Emily nodded.

He unbuckled Emily from her car seat and they headed into the barn. Moon poked her head out of her stall and whinnied at the pair. She was glad to see them. Sebastian swooped Emily up into his arms and greeted the mare. "Moon!" Emily exclaimed, leaning forward towards the pony. She rubbed the mare's forehead and planted a kiss between her eyes. The pony tossed her head up towards Emily in a playful manner and the girl screamed with giggles. She loved horses and having a pony of her own made the girl extremely happy. "Ready to go to the party?" Sebastian asked, and Emily patted the pony's head again before nodding yes. He reached into his pocket and pulled a treat out and offered it to Emily. She grabbed it and fed it to the pony, who took it graciously.

People were everywhere at the party, mostly in small clusters talking to each other. There was a buffet of food and lights strung up so everyone could see in the dark. Sebastian headed over to a table with Emily on his hip. He set her down in a chair and then sat down in the chair next to her. So far, he hadn't recognized hardly anyone. Maybe a few people he had seen come and go at the tack shop, or the person who had a stall next to his horses, but nobody he had really talked to before. Emily swung her feet around, acting like she was bored. The music was good and the party was already starting out to be really good. Maybe Sebastian would finally be able to meet someone he could talk to, but it was hard with his daughter around. She didn't want a new mom.

tagged; open
words; 633.
notes; (:
lyrics; don't think i don't think about it by darius rucker
emily's outfit; here.
dog; Maya
horse; Many Moons
truck; 2009 Chevy Silverado

[Lena Kirsten Cordell]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: 101010; border-top: #262626 solid 10px; border-bottom: #262626 solid 10px; width: 510px; padding: 10 5 5 5px;] i remember tears streaming down your face when i said i'll never let you go, when all those shadows almost killed your light, i remember you said don't leave me here alone, but all that's dead and gone and passed tonight, just close your eyes, the sun is going down don't you dare look out your window Tonight was one of those rare nights where both Lena and her twin brother Charlie had no work… it tended to be what happened when he worked as a police officer, and herself as a nurse, both jobs being fairly high pressure and the shifts seemed to be never ending. In more recent years, since she had moved in with her brother, it had gotten a lot easier to work around, it meant less having to pay for babysitters and it was good for Jessie and Jack to have their uncle around, especially since their dad wasn’t in the picture anymore, and especially considering what Diego had been like… sure, there had been good parts but with everything that had happened, she didn’t want that sort of thing in her children’s lives. So they had gone to the spring party together, going their separate ways once they had arrived and after they had checked on the horses, not really on purpose but they both had different people to talk to, and it wasn’t like they needed to be in each other’s vicinities to socialise. They might live together but otherwise they tended to lead different lives outside of their home. It was the best way to do it, really, so they didn’t overcrowd each other’s personal space, and once they eventually stopped living with each other it would make it easier too. And the kids had gone off to find friends of theirs who also rode at the barn, or whose parents rode there as well, she wasn’t worried about them going off and getting into any trouble on their own, they were good kids and knew what the rules were, she’d rarely had to tell them off for anything before actually, which she was extremely thankful for, it made things a lot easier for her. She had finished talking to someone, when Jack reappeared, the six year old skidding to a halt in front of her, grinning. “Mum, can I please have something to eat? I’m starving,” he asked, out of breath a little, she guessed that he had been running trying to find her in the crowd of people. She smiled back, nodding. “Alright, go find somewhere to sit down and I’ll bring you something,” she told him, watching his blonde head bob off again after he nodded, turning to run to find a seat like she had told him to. After she had gotten him a plate of food, she went to where the tables were set up, searching briefly until she spotted him where he had ended up parking himself – at a table that was almost empty save a man sitting there with a young girl, probably his daughter by the looks of things. Approaching the table, she handed Jack his plate, to which he cheerily gave her a quick ‘Thank you!’ before starting to eat, turning to give the unknown male a friendly smile. “I’m sorry, you don’t mind if he sits here, do you?” she asked, the thought occurring to her that maybe he had been waiting for someone to get back or something, so it was probably safest to ask in case they needed to relocate. the war outside our door keeps raging on, hold onto this lullaby even when the musics gone, gone, just close your eyes, the sun is going down, you'll be alright, no one can hurt you now, come morning light, you and i'll be safe and sound, just close your eyes, you'll be alright, come morning light, you and i'll be safe and sound

[/td][/tr][/table]

autumn | 533 | outfit | gold - guy sebastian | finally! the weekend just ate all my free time haha

[/center]