you've got a hold on me -- jess

[Jason Martin Sharpe]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: f9f9f9; border: #470c07 solid 10px; width: 399px; padding: 5 5 5 5px;] i believe in everything but sometimes life don't work that way When everything had blown up at the football game, the last thing Jason had expected was for everyone to just up and leave… well, not everyone, but a lot of them did. He might have felt guilty about going off at Zach, but as far as he was concerned, he had deserved it… and that wasn’t just because he was pissed off over the whole Avery thing. Penny was his friend too, and he’d hurt her, and then he’d dumped Avery as well, and then the whole thing with Max… he wasn’t the sort of person who liked a whole lot of drama, he had gotten enough of that before he had moved to Addison and he certainly hadn’t wanted it to follow him there. The barn had been a sort of safe haven for him lately. School certainly wasn’t, not while everything was still tense and awkward between most of the people he had counted as friends since he had moved here, and home definitely wasn’t. If he could hear Kody raging inside the house before he even walked up the pathway to the front door, he would just turn straight back around and walk back to his car, and headed straight to Crossfire, figuring that if he couldn’t hang out at home, he would at least be able to get some stuff finished here that he needed to do. It was quiet enough to do homework in there as well if he needed to, well, whatever he didn’t need an internet connection for anyway. Today didn’t seem to be much of an exception, the only thing that made him wince slightly over the fact that he was going to be at the barn was the weather, but at least it was warmer inside the race barn than it was outside. Parking his truck in the barn’s car park, he half jogged his way over to the entrance of the race barn, not wanting to stay out in the cold for too long, hands stuffed into the pockets of his jeans to keep them warm. Once inside the confines of the barn he slowed his pace down, walking slowly through the aisles, not really in any particular hurry to get to where Ash and Casey’s horses were stabled, since there was nothing he really needed to get done urgently, this was just killing time until he thought it was probably safe enough to head home. jeff | 406 | catch my disease - ben lee | whee :3

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[avery jane jenner]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: f9f9f9; border: #a2c3e4 solid 10px; width: 450px; padding: 15 5 15 5px;] i've been waking all my life tagged Jason/Ish words 991 o.o muse As Long As You Love Me notes poor leetle avery <3 credits template by irish! Avery had always hated football. She hated the stupid spandex uniforms they wore, she hated watching them run around the field, she hated the screaming fans, and most of all, she hated the players with their inflated egos. So why she'd wound up dating the quarterback of the football team was beyond her. She'd thought that Zach was different. He'd been a good friend... touchy feely to the extreme, but he was like that with everyone, it was just what he did. Or at least that was what she'd told herself. They were chemistry lab partners, which was a little dangerous, they were study group partners, and they were gym class partners. They were close, and she felt comfortable with him. It was really only logical that the next step was dating. So when he'd asked her, of course she'd said yes... and everything was smooth sailing until the day that Jason had hit Zach, saying something about Zach knowing that he liked her and he asked her out anyway... then the whole relationship just made her feel guilty. Everything changed, though, and quickly, when Zach's advances hastily became to aggressive in the Taco Bell parking lot. She liked Zach, but after everything that had happened with Jason, she wasn't so sure that she wanted all of that right now with him... and even if she did, she didn't want her first time to be in the passenger seat of his car in the Taco Bell parking lot. She'd stopped him, and he took her home. Then there was the football game... where everything just got worse... and after which, Zach promptly broke up with her, saying they "just weren't working out." At first she'd thought it was because he was trying to be a better friend to Jason and Penny... but when it had become quite obvious that he was dating the head cheerleader, who only dated boys to have sex with them, she was overwhelmed by the thought that it was because she'd said no to sex. After that point, she started questioning everything about the relationship she'd had with Zach. Had he dated her just because he wanted to have sex with her? Did he break up with her because she'd said no? It hurt, just to consider the options. She had really thought that Zach had asked her out because he wanted just to be with her. He was willing to risk facing the wrath of Danny, should he ever find out about them, and she had thought that it really meant he cared. Now she was fairly sure that it meant he just really wanted sex. She wasn't sure, really, whether she wanted to cry or bash his head in with a brick... maybe even just a little bit of both. How he could do that to her was just not fair. Then there was the whole Danny marrying Beth just on a whim. Avery liked Beth, she really did, but a part of her was still jealous and defensive after everything that had happened with Leah before. Seeing Danny so heartbroken was almost as frightening as seeing him lying in that hospital bed barely breathing and only with the help of all the machines. She didn't want that to happen to him again, and she was really rather afraid that he had jumped into marriage all too quickly with Beth. She knew that he loved her, but he had loved Leah too, and look where that had gotten him. Avery loved seeing Danny so happy, the way he was with Beth, but a part of her wished that he could have been even just a fraction of that amount of happiness when it had just been him and her together, no girlfriends or boyfriends, and no wife. She knew it wasn't the same, a relationship between a sister and a brother was completely different between a husband and wife, but still, she felt a little neglected sometimes. So, she had been avoiding the house a lot lately, which was easy considering that she now lived on the property with Danny and Beth. She spent most of her time in the race barn, tending to Danny's persnickety thoroughbreds, or else with her crabby old appaloosa. Today, as usual, she'd been driven from the house by the two love birds doing what love birds did best and making love. Couldn't they have done that and gotten it over with while she was at school? She'd been down in the barn for about a half hour, and was busying herself with cold hosing Nic's leg, which still had some swelling after his nasty trip out of the gate in the last race, which he'd never ended up finishing. The colt was one of the better behaved horses in the barn and really had a rather sweet personality. He was mostly just standing quietly, not minding the cold water running on his puffy leg, which allowed Avery to sort of drift off in her own thoughts... until out of the corner of her eye she spotted movement, which was rather unexpected at this time of day, and practically made her jump out of her skin... and accidentally spray Nic in the face. "Jesus Jason!" she exclaimed as the horse let out a snort of indignation at being hit in the face with the stream of water, "You shouldn't sneak up on people like that." She could practically feel her heart pounding right out of her chest. She really rarely expected people to be around the race barn at this hour, since most of the workouts were done and feeding wasn't usually for another couple hours... but she couldn't exactly say that she was displeased with him being there.

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[Jason Martin Sharpe]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: f9f9f9; border: #470c07 solid 10px; width: 399px; padding: 5 5 5 5px;] i believe in everything but sometimes life don't work that way Part of him wished that he hadn’t joined the football team when he had arrived in Addison… then he probably wouldn’t have met half the people he knew now and it would really be saving him all of this trouble with everything. But Ash had thought it would be a good idea, something else to keep him out of trouble, and he knew how much his eldest brother didn’t want him getting caught up in anything Casey was concocting and it was good for him to be doing something besides school work and looking after the horses… especially now that he wasn’t around the wrong sorts of people he had hung around back in their hometown, although that was definitely a good thing. That hadn’t really been by choice… thanks to his idiot middle brother he got a reputation without even doing anything and it was hard to shake in a town where everyone knew who the Sharpes were. And then he had come here and everything seemed like it was going to be different for once… he had decent friends and everything was going well, he’d found a girl that he actually really genuinely liked and he had been working up the courage to ask her out… the first thing that had gone wrong was his idiot brother, again. Apparently he had already managed to get himself into her older brother’s bad books and then that made him look at him as if he was expecting him to be just like Casey, even though he wasn’t, which didn’t work in his favour… and this had happened, and it had all turned to shit again. He probably should have known that it was all going too well to last, nothing ever did. Maybe he was being pessimistic about it all but this always happened so he really couldn’t help but think that way. To get to Ash and Casey’s horses he had to pass through Danny’s lot… something which he was slightly wary of doing these days, one because he wasn’t sure running into Danny was the best idea considering what he knew he thought of him, and secondly because he was kind of half scared to run into Avery there. How he felt about her since she had dated Zach hadn’t changed, but after she had heard him blurt out to Zach that he liked her when he had punched his now ex best friend… well, they hadn’t exactly discussed that, of course, seeing as though he had been resolutely avoiding the pair while they had been dating so he didn’t know how she felt about it, if she felt anything at all, and part of him didn’t want to hear the answer at all. Apparently today was going to be the day he ran into her there though, spotting her in the barn hosing one of their colt’s legs with no way of getting around her without being seen unless he decided to turn back around and go back the way he came in before she spotted him. But he didn’t want to do that, so he kept going, taking the chance that maybe she was too busy right now to talk, even though he really did want to talk to her, he just kept chickening out of it. He didn’t realise that he had been so quiet when he had been walking towards her until she jumped, accidentally spraying the colt she had been hosing in the face when she did so, which made him wince a little but at least the horse seemed to be calm, not kicking up a huge fuss like a lot would… especially if they were any of Casey’s horses. “Sorry, I didn’t mean to,” he apologised, after she told him off for sneaking up on her… stopping a few feet away from her and the horse, reaching up one hand to rub somewhat awkwardly at the back of his neck. Well, she didn’t sound annoyed, at least, just surprised. That had to be a good thing, right? “So… what brings you down here at this time of day?” he asked, after a moment. Lame, he knew, but it was all he could come up with right now… he didn’t want to just walk off if she wanted to talk, because he really did want to talk to her… but of course he didn’t want to jump straight into the deep stuff if they were going to go in that direction, unless they were just going to pretend it didn’t happen… he wasn’t sure which he was dreading more out of those two options. jeff | 772 | old james bond | he's so nervous, aww

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[avery jane jenner]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: f9f9f9; border: #a2c3e4 solid 10px; width: 450px; padding: 15 5 15 5px;] i've been waking all my life tagged Jason/Ish words idek muse As Long As You Love Me notes poor leetle avery <3 credits template by irish! If Avery was really honest with herself, which a lot of the time she wasn't, she would have to admit that if Jason and Zach had asked her out at the same time, she most probably would have chosen Jason. She'd had her eye on him since he'd come to Addison. Besides the fact that he was incredibly attractive, there was something about him that caught her eye the first time she saw him. Their relationship was mostly awkward. They were friends, yes, but they seemed incapable of making eye contact, or whenever they did, one or both of them would hastily look the other way. She knew she was very much to blame for this whole thing, and she couldn't help but feel a bit guilty. Why she couldn't just let him know that she liked him was beyond her, but it was just so hard to do. Once she'd gotten with Zach, things only got worse. She'd convinced herself that Jason wasn't into her, so she just went with the next best option... which turned out to be a very poor decision. Now that Zach had broken up with her and was, well, gone... she really realized how much of a mistake she'd made by agreeing to go out with him. Their friendship was pretty well ruined now, and she had a feeling that the same went for her friendship with Jason... not that it really mattered anyway, because Danny was likely to find himself a gun and shoot Jason if he expressed any form of intrest in Avery, after all, Jason was a Sharpe, and if there was one truth in the universe, it was that Jenners and Sharpes did not get along... at least, Danny didn't get along with Sharpes anyway. "It's fine." She said when he apologized. She certainly wasn't mad at him or anything like that. She just wasn't expecting anyone else to be around this time of day. It was her fault really, for not paying attention, it wasn't like he had deliberately snuck up on her just to scare her. That just wasn't something that Jason would do... it was more something Zach would do, only Zach couldn't sneak of his life depended on it. He was louder than a bull in a china shop. "I'm just avoiding the house at all costs," She said in response, reaching over to shut the water off. "It's like living in the honeymoon suite up there. Couldn't they at least have gone to a hotel for a week... or sent me to...." She stopped mid sentence, suddenly realizing that Jason probably had no desire to know what Danny and Beth were doing in their free time. "Sorry... She said with a bit of a smile, "too much information, right? What's your excuse?" Avery really had no idea if he wanted to talk about what had happened between all of them or not, so for the time being, she was just going to let the conversation stay casual, unless he had other plans.

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[Jason Martin Sharpe]

here we go again, i kinda wanna be [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: 0b0b0b; width: 399px; padding: 5 5 5 5px; border-bottom: 12px solid #470c07; border-top: 12px solid #470c07;] more than friends, so take it easy on me To be honest, he wasn’t even really angry about it anymore. At first he had been, because that was just how anyone would react when they saw their best friend kissing the girl that they liked… especially when their best friend was well aware of that fact. Maybe he was still a little mad at Zach over it, but he wasn’t angry with her, and out of everyone involved in the situation he was mostly annoyed with himself for not having the guts to ask her out in the first place. Well, he had the guts to actually ask her, it was more a matter of doubting that she even liked him in the same way that he liked her, as anything more than a friend that had stopped him, for the most part. He couldn’t help but chuckle a little as she started to explain why she was down at the barn as well. He wasn’t sure which was worse out of both of their situations… her brother and his new wife, or him having to listen to Ash and Kody either fighting or, well, doing basically the same as them, minus the whole honeymoon thing. Not that he ever thought that his brother and his girlfriend would ever even remotely act like a typical loved up couple, so he guessed that he wouldn’t have to experience that from them. He shook his head when she said that it was probably too much information, he didn’t mind, it wasn’t like she had gone into a lot of detail after all. “No, I’m pretty much in the same boat… except mine has a very hormonal pregnant lady in it who likes to yell a lot,” he answered, deciding to leave out the threats that he had heard come out of the redhead’s mouth, since it probably wasn’t fair to subject anyone else to them that wasn’t in her firing line. “Maybe you should go stay with Penny or someone for a couple of days.” “Listen… I’m sorry that I haven’t been… around all that much… lately,” he said, after a moment, not exactly sure how to word what he really wanted to say but that was the best he could come up with right now and he just hoped that she understood what he was talking about. He had just needed to stay away as a self-preservation tactic… also so that he wouldn’t end up punching Zach in the face again… but he still felt guilty for avoiding her over it though. jess | 422 | wheee new template

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[avery jane jenner]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: f9f9f9; border: #a2c3e4 solid 10px; width: 450px; padding: 15 5 15 5px;] i've been waking all my life tagged Jason/Ish words idek muse As Long As You Love Me notes poor leetle avery <3 credits template by irish! Avery couldn't help but wince a little when Jason said that Kody was pregnant. She'd never really personally met her, but there was a good reason. She'd seen the angry little red headed woman go off at more than one person and she certainly wouldn't have wanted to be in the receiving end of that massive amount of rage. She could only imagine what she was like with pregnancy hormones, and she wasn't entirely sure if she expected any of the Sharpes to survive. It was like they'd invited a nuclear bomb into their home, then set the house on fire. It was only a matter of time before disaster struck... and when it struck, it was going to strike hard. "And you're actually still living there?" she asked a little dubiously but with a smile, "You're a heck of a lot braver than I am, I would've headed for the hills a long time ago." When Jason apologized for having not been around lately she was a little surprised. Jason had really done nothing wrong. Sure, he'd punched Zach, but he'd had a good reason to, and that was between him and Zach. As far as she was concerned she really should have been the one to be doing the apologizing. Really the biggest one at fault in this had been Zach, considering that he'd known about Jason's feelings for her and he'd asked her out anyway, but she still felt like it was kind of her fault too, since she hadn't turned him down. Then everything had turned out to be exactly the opposite of what she would have hoped for in a relationship with Zach and knowing that hurt even more. It was all just such a mess, and it all could have been avoided if she had just said no. "You don't have anything to apologize for." she said in response, a little uncertain of how to proceed on this topic. "If anyone should apologize it's me. I should have known better." Avery had to admit that she was a little leery of entering into another relationship with a football player. Jason really did seem different, but so had Zach. She wasn't sure if she should trust her intuition anymore and that was a little frightening to her. Granted, she was pretty sure that Jason no longer had any interest in her anymore considering everything that had happened so she didn't think that she really needed to worry about that. She wasn't entirely sure if Jason even knew about everything that had happened after that football game. He'd been avoiding Zach enough that it was entirely possible that he didn't even know that he and Avery were no longer together or that Zach was now with Brittany... but she certainly wasn't going to bring that up, not right now anyway.

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[Jason Martin Sharpe]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: 101010; border: #262626 solid 10px; width: 515px; padding: 5 5 5 5px;] He had to chuckle, a slight grin spreading across his face at what she’d said. “Yeah, I’m surprised I’ve lasted this long myself, actually… then again between school and the horses I’m not there all day so I guess it’s easier to deal with,” he answered. He was fairly sure that if he had to stay at home all day, it would end up driving him crazy… which was one thing he wasn’t looking forward to about graduating, because then he really wouldn’t have much choice about it, unless he actually decided to go to college, or just spent all day at the barn. However, he didn’t really think college was his thing, so maybe the barn it would have to be. What she said next made his heart sink in his chest, although he tried not to show it outwardly. If she had thought dating a guy like Zach was bad, then dating him would be even worse, he guessed. And there had been no indication before that Zach would do anything like that, but he had… and then there was him, with his family and their reputation, and that seemed to leave him with little to no chance. Yeah, maybe he shouldn’t have brought this up at all, he would have been just fine if he’d never had to hear that. And somehow it felt almost worse than finding out she had been dating Zach in the first place. “Dating someone isn’t really something to apologise for,” he answered, shrugging slightly. Well, it was true. Even though it had been painful to see, it wasn’t something she needed to apologise to him about. “I shouldn’t have hit him anyway. I was being a dick,” he added. Well, he wasn’t completely, one hundred percent sorry that he’d punched Zach… it had made him feel better for a small amount of time, anyway… and maybe the other male had deserved it after doing what he did, then trying to act as though it had been nothing after, but he shouldn’t have lost his temper like that. “You can date who you want, I shouldn’t have been hitting people because of it,” he said. Well, that was definitely true… even if he did have feelings for her it didn’t mean she couldn’t date anyone else. Especially if she didn’t feel the same way about him, he couldn’t do anything about that, and he’d just have to get over it. - - - - - - - - - - maybe i'm your mr right baby, maybe i'm the one you like, maybe i'm a shot in the dark and you're the morning light, whoa, maybe this is sad but true, baby, maybe you've got nothing to lose, you could be the best of me, when i'm the worst for you

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[avery jane jenner]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: f9f9f9; border: #a2c3e4 solid 10px; width: 450px; padding: 15 5 15 5px;] i've been waking all my life tagged Jason/Ish words idek muse As Long As You Love Me notes poor leetle avery <3 credits template by irish! As Jason started to say that he shouldn't have punched Zach, he had every right to do exactly that, Avery just shook her head. "No he deserved it Jason." She said in response, "You were friends and he..." She paused for a moment not really sure what she wanted to say or how to say it, "he shouldn't have betrayed that." Really what she wanted to say was that she shouldn't have either, but she wasn't entirely sure what that meant. She really liked Jason, but she'd gotten herself so convinced that he wasn't interested that when Zach asked her out she decided that she should just stop chasing someone who wasn't interested in her and accept the offer of someone who was. She regretted that decision greatly. "And that wasn't what I meant." she added, addressing the whole not needing to apologizing for dating someone, "I just... I thought you weren't interested and Zach was the next best thing so I just..." She paused a moment more, realizing that she really had just blurted it all out, "I gave up and I shouldn't have." Blurting things out without thinking about it first was kind of a Jenner thing. She'd been prone to doing it all of her life, as had Danny. Their parents had always told them to be honest no matter what and she was fairly sure it stemmed from that. They would feel so guilty about not telling the truth that they had to say it. Eventually it moved on to just everything in general. Danny had blurted out quite possibly the least romantic proposal of all time to Beth, and Avery found herself just saying the first thing that popped into her head on a regular basis. Now that it was out there, Avery held her breath a little as she waited for Jason's response. What if he wasn't interested anymore now that she'd gone and dated Zach? What if he'd gotten over it? What if she'd just "bared her soul" to him and he had no interest whatsoever in her? She was really wishing she'd just held her peace and not said anything now. Avery really didn't understand why she was so fixated on Jason. He was a nice guy, but there were plenty of nice guys out there. He was incredibly attractive, but again, it wasn't like Addison was lacking in the attractive department. So whatever it was that had her so into him was absolutely beyond her. All she knew was that she wanted to be with him, and if he didn't reciprocate the same then she was going to be crushed... again.

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[Jason Martin Sharpe]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: 101010; border: #262626 solid 10px; width: 515px; padding: 5 5 5 5px;] “Maybe he did deserve it, but I probably shouldn’t have hit him anyway,” he answered. He didn’t want to be like Casey, and resort to his fists whenever something didn’t go the way he wanted it to, especially in this situation, where it had been half his fault for not actually telling her that he had feelings for her in the first place, and by hitting Zach he had gone and done the exact opposite of what he was trying to do. Even if Zach probably shouldn’t have asked her out when he knew that he did, he couldn’t lay all of the blame on his now former friend. His spirits were lifted a bit, however, when she continued talking… so she had liked him as well then? If only he had worked up the courage to actually ask her out back then, before Zach had gotten the chance to, then maybe this whole thing wouldn’t have been a problem. And maybe if he hadn’t been so caught up worrying that he wasn’t good for her, that he shouldn’t be with her, then maybe it wouldn’t have been a problem either. But who could blame him really, that was what he had spent his whole life hearing from other people, for the most part, thanks to his dad. He looked up at her again, shifting a little nervously where he stood, and clearing his throat. “For the record, I’m still interested,” he said, knowing that probably could have been delivered better but he had never been claimed to be the most eloquent person on the planet – talking wasn’t really his thing, Ash had always been better at doing the smooth talking in the family, and Anna. And he at least had to let her know somehow, even if she wasn’t actually interested in him anymore, even if she had said she had been before Zach, she might be over it now… but he didn’t think she was, if she had gone and told him all of that, right? - - - - - - - - - - maybe i'm your mr right baby, maybe i'm the one you like, maybe i'm a shot in the dark and you're the morning light, whoa, maybe this is sad but true, baby, maybe you've got nothing to lose, you could be the best of me, when i'm the worst for you

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